There was a big fight with my now ex bf, I don't really know

 what was said, or if he  even feels bad about it.( due to drunkenness)

It was both of our faults, but I meant no harm. 

I've heard so many different stories from when my mom talked to him over the phone.

I was only scared cuz I didn't know if he was going to remember what 

went on in the morning...

I never wanted anything bad to happen to him.

I wanted to work it out and talk it out like we were doing so well until that night.

 Im more worried now then scared now.

Those words hurt to the core even being drunk I heard them loud and clear... 

But I don't know the whole story so I have no clue how to feel or what to do....

Last time I tried to sober up and here we go again... I feel bad enough to quit 

 

not that it matters much=

I deleted my Facebook It's too much to handle anyway.

Im alone in this god forsaken place... 

I've already lost 6 lbs in two days or so. When Try to eat it won't stay down.. 

The doctor put me on more pills. I got a new number, and only two of my girlfriends have it. 

They have their own lives tho(they cant help me out).

 

this matters tho= 

I'm sorry for no "real" blog today... when I feel better I will post one.

This will take time... like my feelings. I need to sort things out.

 

 

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